Am about to lose my mind... I need a doctor



Not to sound melodramatic, but moving is the just worst! Really, it is. Don't get me wrong, i love traveling and new experiences, but moving is like that weird friend of a friend that you don't really like but a forced to be around. I have moved 4 times this year and 2 of these were within the same month. The thing that made it stressful was the fact that these moves weren't planed at all. Due to a crazy series of unfortunate event, i found myself having to move right away. So i got to packing, cleaning and lifting...so much lifting, tell me why does it seem like the amount of stuff you own triples when it comes time to move, aah!

But lest you think this is going to be a whiny post, I learned something during this time too.

I found out that i don't do well with disorder. I like things being just so, particularly in my surroundings. Now I know that this may not be surprising for those who know me well, but this was a whole new level of crazy. I was super OCD about everything, and felt super overwhelmed when things didn't look or work the way i wanted. And the unfortunate few who were stuck with me endured my shockingly bossy and impatient attitude...sorry friends, my bad.
I realised that i was being a total crazy person because i wanted to feel in control of something in my life because the moving was making me feel very unsettled and out of control. Ya, all that from psych 101 haha.

Thankfully, I was able to find some comfort in my faith that helped me cope. God was super awesome at bringing just the right words to mind, i was reminded that he is never surprised or shaken. He maintains loving control of all things.

^" Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand."(Isaiah 41:10)

This was just the medicine i needed to get me out of my funk and feel more comfortable with not always being the one in control. I cant say am cured...my constant room organizing gives me away. But treatment is working, and as I anticipate the moves that lie in my future, specifically the move to Singapore, am glad am getting to deal with some of my crazy here and now.

Oh and speaking of Singapore, am super excited to fill you guys in on whats been going on.
Thanks for reading.
XOXO

So you blog now???

Hello world! ok confession, i have been a blog devotee for a long time now (like 3 years, seriously). I stay up far too late on too many nights catching up on all things vlog/blog related. I spend more time on YouTube than watching real TV, I think people are instantly cool and Bff material if they know what The Blond salad,  Style Pantry or Meek nd Mild have in common. Yap am full on Blog addicted:)
With this conclusion came another realisation. "I should start a blog!" For months i thought about this but kept coning up with reasons why not. Mostly, it all came down to the fear that I didn't have anything interesting to say. Now not to brag but am pretty freakin interesting haha, nah for real though my grandma tells me am cool and i for one choose to believe it :) I guess I just realised that ultimately i have a unique and singular perspective and i owe it to myself to explore it, ya am finding my self ok, don't judge lol. i might as well write things down for myself, even if no one else ever stumbles across it ( am glad you did btw).
So here we are, I finally decided to take the leap and just go for it. Now comes the dreaded question, "What do I talk about?" Well, for these first few posts, i thought i would just start off with a mini intro in each of the areas my blog will cover. Hope you check back in soon and  see where this goes.
Peace nd Love
~Cecilia~